Anger Energy

Before I got to work last morning, I decided to pack my shoes and my running kit in my closet and not open it until I get past the break-up. I came into work, focused as much as possible on what I was working on, read a little bit on break-ups and post break-up depression and decided to heck with it. After work, I really did not feel like being by myself and took off to meet a few guys from Frost at Bikes. The drinking ensued until late and I took off to 10 downing street later. The entire evening was spent thinking of darling Pegasus in my closet.

I am good at learning from other people’s mistakes. I learnt in the past that people have given up running after tough break-ups. Maybe they did not love running as much as I do. I asked myself if I were to make a choice between living with this girl for the rest of my life or continue running for say 75 years more. She is a great person but I just think running means something more to me than human relationships. The choice was obvious - RUNNING for 75 long years…. Seven (That’s my favorite number when it comes to beers) beers on that one please!!!

I woke up at 7 am today but luckily the weather was good. All the breakup anger energy I've been experiencing has somehow made its way in a positive direction in my running today. All of a sudden I have all this energy and have been able to reach some new running milestones because the breakup anger has been pushing me a bit harder. I get into that zone while running " She did not know what she was doing but it hurts" and before I know it I'm running a bit harder and longer. It's been fantastic that I can transfer anger energy into something positive. Now, because I've been running for three years already, and have hurt myself before, I am better at knowing when pushing too much will turn into injury so I am pushing in a challenging yet safe way.

I am emerging out of this shit-hole slowly. My legs and my head have emerged and it is only about time, that my heart will emerge. At the beginning of the tunnel, I see light in the form of a woman holding a torch.

The goal is still intact – a marathon in 3 hours 45 minutes by the end of this year.