Another Reason to Run

I can think most clearly when I run. I can relate different events of a life to each other and I think much faster than usual and come up with simple philosophies that I believe makes me a better and a more sensitive person. It also makes me highly immune to pain/struggle and I know both mentally and physically I can take more pain/struggle than an average person. Pain itself is very addictive. If you don't experience it for a while, you start missing it which is why I think I love to run.

The 10k training is coming out well. I am running faster and harder than before and my speed has been improving. I am able to do an semi difficult 10k in 50 minutes and if I push myself, I am able to do it in 45 minutes (after which I want to throw up :)). I have a few more days left in the first cycle of training and I feel great already. Also, cutting back on beer makes me feel a lot lighter and less dehydrated.

At a personal level, I feel like I have lost myself somewhere in the last few months. I see myself incapable of falling in love and I find it hard to trust people. I'll leave this rant for later though.
Just that I don't feel like myself anymore and I hate it.